Protective

I woke up at 11:30pm last night feeling starving for the first time in this pregnancy. I got up and ate a jello cup, cereal bar and made myself some grits! Went back to bed at 12:30 and slept soundly till 6:00! I woke up feeling great! Went to my Dr. Apt and went over changes and delivery options etc. Came home a slept/rested. It is official though, I am on bed rest for the next two weeks so the subchorionic hemorrhage can heal on both babies. So today I've been arranging help in every department. Food, kids etc. I'm so blessed to have so many wonderful people that are more than willing to help. I have been feeling very "protective" of these babies, more so today than yesterday once I accepted that the nurse was not kidding. I feel... protective. I can't think of any other word. They are so special and delicate and fragile right now! So innocent! I want so badly for them both to be healthy and grow like they should and kept safe!

Shane has been wonderful. He is so concerned about the babies! First thing out of his mouth when I came home was "are the babies ok" "did the bleeding stop". He was a bit disappointed when I said we won't know for another 2 weeks. Very concerned disappointment. He's been very helpful with Zander and getting me food and water. I think I am going to take him with me to my next sono apt. He has always been very interested in babies and where they come from and the different stages of growing etc. Which brings me to the point that I had to explain very vaguely how babies are made. I did get into some detail at some points so he could understand clearly and I think I did a good job, he seems satisfied in my answer, for now. He's a smart kid, it was obvious he knew I was not saying certain things and keeping it to the point. Zander is just my handfull right now. If he is awake I can not sleep. I can barely lay down and rest. He's being good, he's just busy. Seth knows and understands and has been a great little guy too with listening and doing what I ask him the first time, but he doesn't "Deep" think about it like Shane. Canberra likes to know how big the babies are every day! She uses her fingers to make sizes and I get out the book that shows the "actual size" of the babies. Zander will come up to me and instead of hitting my stomach with his head like he usually does, he lifts up my shirt... says some baby talk and kisses my tummy and puts my shirt down and runs off to play.

Daniel has 1 1/2 weeks left of his class and then we can SLEEP! He has been up to 11:00pm most nights, every night doing homework. It's been very hard on us both. He is very concered about "providing" for our family well. I keep reasurring him he is doing all he can the very best he can and that we will be just fine. I don't think that helps him feel any better though. Our biggest financial situation will be getting a suburban this year. But I think that will turn out just fine as well, somehow.